23 Feb 2005
As the storm rages on, life ends for me... The pains grow stronger as the waves go on... Nothing to gain, nothing to lose... Know forever that I'm here for all of you... I've lost that thought, the thought of other here for me.. for it's my reality... I've become sacrifice, as I lose my entity... Existence fades.. not only for me, but for you... Tears wash the blood away.. tell me now, who's to stay? Stay to watch my crucifixion, my conviction... Guilty of only being there.. of care... Feeble, frail, and rotting... Left to bathe in the shit and piss you cover me in... Left impassive.. left to die.. discovering my corpse, still alive... Living for the moment.. in the moment.. by the moment... Living for the memory.. The past and now the future... Labeled a failure.. push to succeed.. only to fail again... Life for me, it ends.. for you, It only breaks and bends... Dark clouds fallow me.. the storm still rages... This isn't ink covering the pages... The voices in my head tell me to come home... But my body comes to you... Lock and load, and prepare for the worse... Shoot me down, deliver me by hearse... To my grave.. Existence fades into the eternal abyss that is me... Now.. my implosion is complete...